In Memories of David Thong

Never welcome something you cannot entertain,
Never open your door if you meant to close your heart,
Never accept love if you can't give yourself in return,
Never start a relationship you know you want to end.

As I was looking at my old photo archieves I found this picture, it was taken in 1996. These are the people I 1st met on the net, all started from mIRC. I have met hudreds of new found friends ever since then .. it's really amazing come to think of it. Can you spot which one is me?

Looking at what Nottigal has posted the previous blog. As the owner of this blog I think it's time for me to lay my hands on the keyboard once again although I've got nothing much to write. My mind is totally blank as for now and dont know what to write. My life has become so dull all of the sudden when I start to think about what has happened for the past 12 months. Time flies so fast I can't imagine I haven't done any good to improve myself. Hate myself for not doing anything but useless complains just like what I'm doing now.. how ironic. It has been a year since I started this blog and soon to be 1st Anniversary. What have I achieve for 2004? Nothing. But I'm glad that I've found some new friends and having a proper job. But I still failed my main objective.... to be a better person. I'm not saying that I'm a bad motherfxxker xxxhole that sit down and do nothing but gives trouble.... or maybe I am to some people.. hehe. I just wanted to improve myself... my attitude...responsibility... everything.

I just thought I could have done better.

I feel so ashame of myself.

As the end of the year is nearing, are we all getting excited on what has been lined up for us in Year 2005 or to some of you, it's just another approaching year? It haven't been a rather good year for me... As a lot of things which is not really on the bright side, and that when it happens, it just means problems for me and all these things happened within the last 12 months. For instance, I had 2 operations this year alone! And still recuperating from the last operation which was less than 2 weeks ago. This time, I had my appendix removed- some useless organ in your body (which I was made to understand). It doesn't really affect you but, mine sort of got infected and I was in such great pain that I actually let the nurse to give me about 4-5 injections in total to kill the pain- now you can imagine how painful it was that I actually let the nurse do that. For those that didn't follow my series of operations, in May this year I had a sinus operation - or when people ask, I said I had a nose job. And, people always say that my doctor didn't do a good job cause my nose is still there... Haha...
I'm happy that we are approaching Year 2005, so that I can just bury whatever that has happened this year and get myself geared up to face 2005. I would believe that it'll be a much much better year for me after I go 'mandi bunga' - a colleague's advice. Find 7 different types of flower and soak them in a pail of water and shower before 530am. Crossing my fingers to hope that it will work! Though, am not too happy cause I'll be a year older... I'll be in my mid 20s... That 'mid 20s' phrase hurts my ear like hell! Oh well, at least I'll be wiser...
Till then, wishing everyone Merry Christmas & Happy New Year. Be prepared to see a luckier, wiser and a little older Nottigal next year! May God bless...